You sound so angry

Yesterday, I bumped into one of my colleagues and he goes “I just read your last post a while ago and it sure sounds like you are mad at something”.

At first I tried to defend myself by directing him to other write-ups that I felt where uplifting and encouraging, some which were just neutral and in the middle. I think I successfully got to show him that I was just trying to give the girl inside of me a voice.

As I walked to my desk, I had a re-think. I cannot shy away from who I am. If my write-ups sound angry, then that is me. If it sounds as if I am hurting, then that is me and when it is sounds happy, I guess that is me too. The incident might look very trivial and minute, but trust my over-active brain to start spiking up things.

My mind went back to the recent uprising in Egypt, Libya and Syria and I realize that humans are built to take just enough of it, after that, KABOOM!!!! If we take a closer look at things, it is clear to see that these individuals in the different countries did not have any avenue, to air their views and speak their mind. I guess they were pushed to the wall and when they realized the only way out was to turn and face the music, they did just that.

My dear friend, that is the problem right here. I am like the air, no one can see, no one can hear me. I have got feelings too. Sometimes it gets stepped on, trampled on and what not. I guess I am sick and tired of grinning and bearing it. You have to accept me as I am and give me space to be. Who knows, I might just find peace and comfort in spitting out all the emotions. and maybe eventually, I’ll be saved from myself.

Have a great weekend everyone!